If not now,then when?

Making a decisions at times can be one of the hardest things one has to do. I did my first year at CPUT in 2001,I then took a break to focus on my family.My friend completed her National Diploma and her Btech. I was happy for her,however a question at the back of my mind was,'if not now Nomsa,then when'?

I knew I had to answer this question,as it started making my life a misery,because it felt like I had failed by not finishing what I had started. During that long break I had given birth to another child, and I was happy. However the guilt of not completing my National Diploma was eating inside of me. I knew I had to answer the question that was inside my head. The answer was NOW,and that was in 2008. Yes after 7 years of pursuing my other interest I had to come back and finish what I had embarked on 7 years ago.

I knew it wasn't going to be easy,after such a long time from studying,but I knew I had to go back and finish my studies. When registering it felt like I had my Diploma in my hands already,it was a feeling of some archivement.It was the first step of a thousand step,and I was so proud of answering the question.The first semester was not easy,there were times I felt like giving up.Having to come home to my small kids at night,has been the hardest part of my studying so far.
I could have answered the question differently,but the answer I chose that day,is the reason I am here now.

We all do things at our own pace,because we are all different. What is important is having a vision and a plan in hand. Knowing that you want to amount to something in life,is a good start. By acknowledging that you want to do something worth while,is good. When that question come in your head you need to respond to it,otherwise you go through life wondering what it would have been like had to answered that inner voice. I am still on the learning path of not putting on things for tomorrow.